Sounds to me like an adoptee wrote this.
(I decided I would break this down)
I'm afraid of giving up giving in and letting go: Reminds me of an adoptee that is searching or in reunion, and dealing with the emotions of what is to come. Reminds me of an adoptee dealing with rejection.
I'm afraid of the ticking clock passing time and missed opportunities: An adoptee that is searching or in reunion wondering, if I wait too long my biological family may pass away or I might miss a very important event such as a birth, wedding, death, graduation.
I'm afraid of my own emotion unstable as I such a foolish mess: Yep. This has adoptee written all over it. We never know how we may feel when news breaks out. Just the thought of being adopted and someone says the word triggers emotions. How many people have called you emotionally unstable? I've heard many adoptees excuse themselves for talking too much.
I'm afraid of lost control lost insanity and loss of life: Whew! Adopted all over. Thank God I am in a better place today. I used to snap at the drop of a dime, especially when it was something my family would do to me. My biggest fear since knowing I was adopted was my biological mom and dad would be dead.
What are some of the things you think of when you read this?
For me it sounds like someone who is in search of themselves...
ReplyDeleteThis resonated with my fear of being stuck - i.e. spending time and energy focusing on my birthmom's rejection rather than the joy of my life.
ReplyDeleteIt sounds like a mother.....
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