My adoptive family hosted their 2nd conference call last night, as they begin to put together a family reunion to bring me back home to Puerto Rico in August for my birthday. They are expecting approximately 300+ family memebers to attend this reunion. YIKES! Talk about shaking in my boots. I come from a family of three. As you can see this is going to be quite an intersting time. I have mentally been trying to prepare for this reunion since I was told in form of a joke that if my biological family would ever host a family reunion they would have to rent out Yankee Stadium.
I logged onto Facebook last night and noticed my biological family was having a conference call. I was nervous to call in the line, but I wanted to hear what they were talking about. I almost wished they did not know I was on the line, but I had to announce myself after the chime. I know my biological family was surprised I was on the line. However, they were so kind and welcoming. Oh yes, I cannot fail to mention how FUN-KNEE they are! I have to admit though, as soon as their voices began to resonate the truth begin to sit in again. I am adopted. I wanted to hang up the phone immediately. My eyes began to fill up with tears and thoughts began to race through my mind. I needed help! But I knew that no 9-1-1 call could help this heart. The pain of the realization of what is about to take place this August was piercing my soul....
Although it hurts to think that I was given up and adopted, I have to be strong through this process. I know I have a family that loves me very much and wants to meet me. I walk this journey by faith. One step at a time. One prayer at a time. God is my compass. He will light up the way for me.
I welcome your comments and words of encouragement.
Thank you,
Thank you for being a part of the conference call. It was def. surprising to hear that you were on when I chimed in and it put a smile on my face. I hope God can help you prepare yourself mentally and emotionally for you to join us on this crazy-fun reunion we are planning for all. God Bless and hope to hear from you on the next call! <3
ReplyDeleteIt was def a surprise that you logged on to the call last night. It also made MEEEE nervous as I was the one leading!!!! I too shake in me boots!!! Thanks for doing it though. It means a lot to everyone. Love ya!
ReplyDelete300! Yes it sound like a Puertorican party!.
ReplyDeleteYou will have such an amazing connection Im the one that cannot wait.
I know is hard but have done a good by taking it one step,at the time,and letting all the incoming news to be processed correctly by your heart,soul and mind.
Im happy for you,,what can I say?
You have been a wonderful friend to me.
Let your voice be heard!!!!
Muzik, your faith and your heart will get you through this. Yes, they love you. Yes, you are adopted. Both/and. All. Everything.
ReplyDeleteI am glad you made that call! It is an amazing feeling to know all of your family. By getting to know my natural family, I have learned even more about myself. Yes, each new introduction is scary for me...but it is so worth it! <3
ReplyDeleteIt must be hard to handle...People who love you, who you 'could' have been a part of from the start, people who you were separated from...I wish you as smooth a journey as possible.It must be overwhelming.Yet only in confronting it all can you find a bit of peace.All the best...
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